I’m not who I was when I started traveling fifteen years ago. I’m not who I was when I lived in a van three years ago. I’m not who I was before the pandemic started. It’s a process, it’s a change, and it’s a chance.

I’m not who I was when I started traveling fifteen years ago. I’m not who I was when I lived in a van three years ago. I’m not who I was before the pandemic started. It’s a process, it’s a change, and it’s a chance.
If one person has a fever we all have to stay home and quarantine. Not exactly on the top of our to-do lists when most of us only have a few days wiggle room to get our 88 days for our visa extension.
A year is not enough time. But oh, what a year it was…
Three sides to every story, see
What happened, not so clear
But each believes wholeheartedly
Tall standing, free of fear
It’s the same as going to Evanston or Fort Collins or Asheville or Berkley and finding out you’re talking to a college student: well of course you are, how could you not? That’s nothing surprising and nothing new.
This world I’m entering? It’s just as obvious as that. To those back home, it looks exotic and interesting.
It’s easy to be impressive when you’re the only one doing something: owning a successful business, building your house from scratch, running a marathon or five, performing for a paying audience.
But when you’re surrounded by people all doing the same thing, it’s a little less sparkly.
Most certainly, there’s a camaraderie: an instinctual knowledge of depth and breadth and love and fear. It’s easy to dive in deep about nuance and common ground.
But you’re not the special and different one when you’re surrounded by people just like you. You become boring.
Today I become boring.
Today I become just like everyone else I talk to.
Oh, you’re just another Working Holidayer.
No big deal, been there, done that.
Just another American abroad.
Just another twentysomething deciding if I’m running towards or running away from something.
Today I become boring.
Today I become that predictable.
Everyone has been elsewhere.
Everyone is on the adventure of a lifetime.
Everyone lives in a van on purpose.
Everyone is chasing passport stamps.
Everyone is choosing this life instead of a house and kids and financial stability.
Today I become boring.
Today I’m just another expat zorbing.
Today I’m just another Midwesterner realizing the difference between artificial sweetness and genuine kindness.
Today I’m just another kid walking the balance between panic and elation, homesickness and sick of being home.
On the road, in the hostel, on the mountain, in the campground, I see my soul reflected on every face.
There’s nothing interesting about me here. Today, there is nothing unique, nothing that catches your attention and makes me different.
Today, my words become my own again. Among those who speak my language and feel my heartbeat, I am my own person. I am not “the traveler” – we all are. So who I am must be richer and more fulfilling, not resting on the easy reputation of being a globetrotter.
So much time to finally discover who I am meant to be when my default is stripped away.
Today I become boring.
Today, I become an expat.
Are you under 30? Do you have no dependents? Okay, sweet, that’s about it.
And then it moves on again, but this conversation is just a fraction more beautiful. Do you truly speak my language? Does this mean something to you, too?
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